Sleeping

Or rather, not.

Insomnia…

free time
extra hours
actually finishing the “to do” list
being alone in the store (because it’s 2am)
writing
befriending stars

being alone in the dark
feeling like a ghost in your own house
laying awake in a tired body
counting sheep, goats, the whole damn barnyard
the tick tock tick tock tick tock tick…
dreaming of sleeping

frustration
glaring at a refuge-less bed
sleeping while awake
endless, dayless, nightless
depression*
awake

Insomnia.
Written July 2007

*This is not clinical depression, just the depressing realization that insomnia is an endless, cycleless sort of cycle. And you have my sympathy if you also understand that description.